SURPRISE! There is a baby on board, making me feel sick, tired and ALWAYS hungry!
I won’t lie this first trimester has been rough AF. It’s why I’ve not posted anything new, I’ve had little to no energy at all. Between a toddler waking up through the night, teething, all the winter bugs & work. I honestly couldn’t be bothered, I wanted to speak about being pregnant but too much happened at the start of the pregnancy that I didn’t want to tell my story yet.
Second Pregnancy Announcement
So my husband and I had decided not to have anymore kids yet. He didn’t want anymore but I did, just not this soon. Oops. To say I was scared shitless to tell him is an understatement! I knew he’s be okay after the shock, I think it was more from my side. Not feeling ready yet, I had plans to finally lose the baby weight from my pregnancy with Emerson.
I waited all day, until he was in bed getting ready to go to sleep before I told him. I didn’t have a cute way of telling him like you see online all the time. Nope, the girl that isn’t usually scared to say something – literally had nothing to say. So I text him. A picture of the test. Whilst sat right in front of him. I know how ridiculous, I just couldn’t say the words I’m pregnant. I’ve only just started saying it at 15 weeks.
He was shocked, and I don’t blame him. He’s excited now obviously. My mum didn’t believe me when I text her, she thought I was lying since she knew the situation between us.
Announcing your pregnancy doesn’t have to have the same time frame for everyone. You tell who you want to tell, when you want to tell them. If anyone has a problem with it, then there isn’t anything wrong with you saying to them it’s your pregnancy and you will announce on your terms. Not everyone is comfortable announcing so soon, or so late. As long as your partner is supportive that’s all that matters. I choose to announce later because of my own anxieties with being pregnant. My husband isn’t bothered at all. We agree it’s up to me, when I feel ready.
My Fourth Pregnancy
So if you’re new here, this is actually my 4th pregnancy. You can read my blog posts about my ectopic pregnancy which was my 1st. Emerson was my 2nd, I had a miscarriage last summer. I officially have two rainbow babies. This is my 4th but also my last.
All of the pregnancy have been difficult, with Emerson I had SPD and could barely walk towards the end. This pregnancy has been rough, due to being high risk from my losses I am entitled to early scans. My first scan they couldn’t find anything. Which sucked, I was in limbo for 2 whole weeks before they could tell me if we were going to have a successful pregnancy or not.
Being told that you may or may not actually be having a baby was worse than my miscarriage. For me anyway, it was the not knowing that affected me the most. Why couldn’t they find anything? I was either too early, or it wasn’t going to develop and I’d miscarry again. “We just have to wait” is that I was told.
I think that set the tone for my pregnancy if I’m completely honest. The not knowing what was happening if I’d have to go back to hospital and have a D&C. All the unknowns drove me crazy, I wasn’t pleasant to be around. Luckily I didn’t need to go to my second scan alone, my amazing friend from work came with me to watch Emerson, so I could go in alone as it’s an internal scan. Ouch.
All is well, I was earlier than we thought. I just ovulated later. But funnily enough, at my 12 week scan I’m 1 week ahead. We think it’s a girl causing us all this drama. It wouldn’t surprise me. Either way we’ll be happy, this is it for us. No more babies after this, from my body anyway.